Saturday, April 4, 2009

Fighting What We Cannot Kill

Darkness screaming to me day and night. Lies echo in my head.

Telling tales of my countless failures, of my endless hypocrisies.

Shame comes to slowly drown me, creeping softly to my ear.

Death is painted as release. An end to suffering, and the penance

for all I am. My feet lead me onward, across paths I know

too well, to the dark and vile places of my soul. Anger rages

inside me. Hate for this world, and hate for myself. no words

of comfort soothe the anguish writhing in my heart. I must

end this, destroy this daily struggle. Purpose now set in my

step, as my pace quickens to seek a means of killing these

thoughts. Air rushes into my lungs as the walk becomes a

sprint. Running faster and faster to that desired peace.

The cliff ahead welcomes me, shining brilliantly in the raging

storm. The precipice stands before me as blackness surges

down below, screaming of its endless torment. What peace

is this? What end is this to suffering? My eyes turn

backwards, to what I'm running from. To the man whose

eyes I cannot meet. To Him whose love I don't deserve.

He speaks to me, showing me the price He paid. Shame

subsides and the lies in my head fall silent. "Why are you

still trying to fight what you cannot kill?" "Leave this place

behind, come to me and live."

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